LIFE’S CRUCIAL MOMENTS

We are beasts of wants and needs. The recent crisis is a good example of how greed pushes everyone over the edge.

We don’t stop wanting more and more of something. We promise we stop but we keep breaking it. Man is never content.

When I was in college all I wanted was to be a barista of Starbucks or an ordinary hotel staff. I didn’t want to take on bigger responsibilities. I already felt content about becoming a rank and file employee and earn meagre income. To be able to afford a signature shirt that’s about US$ 10 or so already suffices.

Of course, it goes without saying that presently I have surpassed my college goals a hundred fold. But despite that I still keep asking for more.

My personal life is not even spared from our chronic desire to want more after having more.

After a few failed attempts at keeping a relationship to last long, I have figured that if I continue to submit myself to my excessive tendencies I will never attain that point of satisfaction. I will never be in a long-lasting relationship. I will never realize that dream of being with someone for as long as my life lasts. I know that nothing stays forever but the memories you create within a meaningful and unselfish commitment is ephemeral.

What is the dilemma this time, Mike?

I strongly feel that this year has posed crucial moments in my life.

I can see a major life-altering decision to be made.

It’s not that I have not done any before but the people involved are subjects that fit well into my criteria.

Could it be anyone of them?

I will know when I am already there.

The synopsis: I have known two men who are equally desirable and both have their own merits. Either which way, it will provide a serious commitment. And I feel certain that things will work out at a different level.

The concern: What should be my main basis for making a decision?

The difference: I involuntarily want to conceal this story from my family and close friends. Unlike in previous years everybody would know my every move. It becomes public knowledge. However, this time around I am not keen in sharing this information to everyone. I just felt it so unnecessary. Why only this time?

Probably a dormant part of me has awaken and this part is the one that will make me be man enough to stand up for what I believe in. I am not so good with making sacrifices. I value my career more than anything else. Anyhow, at the end of the day, I would fret at the thought that I have not really made much progress with my personal life.

Striking a balance is not easy. Nevertheless, if I keep on procrastinating my plans then when will I ever let things happen?

I want to change the course of my life.

I hope this time will be the right time.