Bye South Pacific!

Finally it has sunken deeply that I am leaving in a month's time.

Many tumultuous events transpired since the beginning of the year from being dragged into deception, finding a new love interest and meeting up with an old special friend.

At this point I am in a very emotional state. There is this feeling of love and hopelessness, joy and sadness, triumph and guilt.

In a short span of time, I am caught in this web of experience that will make my leaving the beautiful islands of Fiji a little bit harder.

Catching up with an old special friend is not in my option. However, I can't help not seeing him for the last time. Now my heart is beating again. I know that I still love him and it is enough evidence of my undying love for someone. Feelings are fleeting for most of us. Mine didn't just go away like that.

I had a long discussion with my boss who I despised for a while when all this brouhaha happened between two significant people. I was caught in between and my loyalty swang from side to side. But in the end I returned to where my respect and trust really belongs - my boss.

My staffs and colleagues hardly believe I am going in 30 days. It wasn't expected. They wouldn't expect it because I was always happy about my life and work here in Fiji. My colleagues have already began planning for my farewell soiree.

There is a new life out there waiting for me and it is bigger than life itself. I have been in Dubai for over a year but that was almost two years ago. I will be in an unchartered course bereft with challenges.

Sigh!

I know things will change as I move to China. New people to deal with, new vision, new environment and hopefully new lifestyle.

If anything, what I desire from God right now is to allow these feelings of love to be replaced with something more easy for me to manage. I need someone to usurp it.